Diamond Ring

Looking down at my sparkle
that I found in a cedar chest
one that my father gave to me
memories flood back to me:
Making her “grass tacos,”
made out of leaves and different grasses
Trying to find her belly button
that was no longer there,
Picking blueberries together
eating eight bowls at a time,
Collecting money from the men for coffee
with my Smurf money bank,
not letting them drink until they paid up.
Playing with me on the floor
with all my dad’s old toys:
a wooden connecting blocks,
a metal spinning top,
an old metal “Farmer in the Dell” musical toy.
Picking Concord grapes from the field
seeing her sitting in the kitchen corner
in her rocking chair
either her dog Rusty in her lap
or I am with her reading to me.
Drinking Jell-o since we
were too impatient to wait.
She saved my dog Sheppy
from an untimely death.
Losing her at the young age of 12
after being in a car accident
in the middle of winter.

Who Am i?

I am a friend.
I am not stuck up.
I am happy about my life.
I have good friends.
I think I am on a mission.
I wish I don’t remember you tomorrow.
I hate myself when I can’t get my priorities straight.
I miss my home.
I fear that you will be gone someday.
I feel hot and cold when you are around.
I hear myself thinking.
I crave pasta.
I search for you.
I wonder if there is really someone for everyone.
I love my life.
I care for my friends and family.
I sing when I am alone.
I cry during a sappy movie.
I fight when I am right.
I win at life.
I lose nothing.
I never want to age.
I confuse myself.
I listen to my mother.
I expect guys to open doors for girls.
I risk everything for love.
I believe my final destination is everywhere.

Unloved

There was a girl
Wearing a pink sundress
All she wanted was
To feel and look beautiful
Nothing seemed to help her
Feel this way

She met a man
Who seemed to like her
She finally felt special.
A guy was interested in her
She was giddy and happy but
That feeling soon went away
Once he stopped talking to her

She felt even uglier than
Ever before
Never before had she felt
So unloved and so ugly
She kept thinking there was
Something wrong with her

The boy finally
Talked to her after two weeks
She in her pink sundress
Telling her he is
Completely confused
By his feelings for her
And finally telling her
How he feels towards her
She decides to be strong
And tells him
She doesn’t need him
To feel beautiful
Or even to look beautiful
She wants him.

Mistake

She was alone
In a park, where she didn’t recognize a thing
Confused, scared
Afraid of the silence and stillness
That surrounded her
Scared because she had no idea
What was going on around her?
Now she was worried about
Where her friends and family were
The only landmark is a
Green park with a fountain
Nothing is coming out of the fountain
There is no wind blowing
Just dead silence
Then she thinks back to what
Happened last to her
She started to cry
Thinking how stupid
She could be to let that happen to her
How could she get into a car crash?
With Sarah who was obviously distressed
About something
And let Sarah drive?
She’s dead
Where is Sarah?
Did Sarah survive?
Did Sarah get a scratch on her?
Why is she dead and not Sarah?
She cries thinking about
How sad her family must be
She just hopes Sarah
Doesn’t think this stupid mistake was her fault
Just because she survived.